My life is looking more like a microcosm of the world at large these days. I have reached a tipping point and my old paradigm is being pulled out from underneath me before the new one has become firmly in place. I have spent the past two years preaching about “resting,” but was recently diagnosed with shingles due to “stress.”
The state of rest and the state of stress are polar opposites. I am swinging on the end of the proverbial pendulum, holding on for dear life.
You might ask, what in the world brought me to this pinnacle of despair? The twin devils of over committing followed by a fervent dose of fretting descended upon my life with the autumn leaves. The “I can do it all” syndrome set in for the holiday season. After all, aren’t I the woman who can bring home the bacon and fry it up in the pan?
Any sailor will tell you that when the storm comes, you do not run in the opposite direction, you ride the waves out. Any effort I expend in trying to control the waves in my life would be futile at this point. I just need to quit making waves! Ah…but old habits do die hard.
The human life has a pulse all its own. Today I will pace myself. Assess priorities. The time to set grand goals has passed. I will use more discernment and more discretion in choosing what I am willing to give my energy to. I must look to the small changes I can make that will turn my life toward the direction my life yearns to go.
I aspire to the life of a writer. With any luck, and the grace of God, my insanity will soon give way to a simpler, more serene existence.
Now wouldn’t that be wonderful?
Savor the moment…
Debra Mae
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Wow, Debra, what a great post this is! I’m so sorry to hear about your stress and your shingles. I pray for your serene existence.
Thanks Susan. I appreciate your prayers. Thankfully, the bout with shingles was a mild case and I am already fully recovered in time for my orthoscopic procedure next week. I should be smiling by the time I see you and Devoni 🙂
Hi Debra. I can so identify with you. Been there. And more often than not, am there. One day at a time, one small step at a time, is my motto. Right now in this moment, all is well. God bless you.
Thanks so much for the blessing! I had some minor surgery yesterday and I am grateful all went well. I felt the healing light of the angels all around me along with the blessings of many who held me in prayer. Today I am on the road to recovery and have much to be thankful for! You said it best Margaret…right now all is well.
As all things must change this to shall pass